I probably did and if it wasn't him I ate many of his offspring. Friday was good I actually fooled myself into believing that I could get through easter without a chocolate induced episode .... well I didn't have a choclate episode but I did have many many many hot x cross bun episodes. In avoiding the chocolate I turned to those soft squishy butter loaded fruity buns mmmmmmmmmmmmm (and then ate the chocolate). Thought I would only have one maybe two but you see hot cross buns come in packs of six! So Saturday was bad leading to a really really bad Sunday ending in an off the scales Monday. So Monday night I sat (well lounged due to the bottle of Cats Piss wine - yes it really is a brand and its yummy) and thought well holiday over back to it tomorrow, put this holiday caos behind me.......
Got up this morning and it happened again. I wasn't prepared and after eating breakfast didn't eat anything until three where I consumed (and by this I mean shovelled so quickly into my gob I didn't actually taste anything) One piece of KFC chicken, a zinger burger, large fries and an entire family sized bag of peanut M&Ms. What is happening to me? I can see the 90s in the distant and thats where I wanted to keep them. A few weeks ago I stood on the scales and actually saw the 70s, a number I haven't seen in over six years (actually took me a couple of seconds to recognise what the number was!!) and here I am sabotaging myself. Stop this train I want to get off!!
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I hate that feeling. It's awful. I think in reading those Geneen Roth books, it stirs up a lot of emotions and thinking about food etc, and you probably need to decide what you are going to do. I.e. are you going to stick to the points thing and go for it, or are you going to do your best with the Geneen Roth thing. The problem comes when you try and do both - it's too hard.
Hope this week turns out better for you!
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