Rejoining

In my journey to 'no more dieting' I have realised an essential element is missing and is something which I think is a main factor is sucess. Group support - for those 'dieting' there are classess to go to or girlfriends to talk with, even everyday mags support those on diets with their hints and tips. But I can't seem to find the equivlant that is not centered around 'the diet' - just somewhere to go and talk tips and strategies, a place where people on the same journey can get together. If somone knows of such a place let me know - blogs are great but I really need group face to face stuff so......I am rejoining WW!! Not for the diet I am fine with getting in touch with my hunger and I don't want to become obsessed with points or 'good/bad' food - I just want to be with others who have the same feelings and thoughts I do and are on the same journey. The meeting that I used to go to on Saturday morning was great for that it was like the WW plan was happening in the background - the leader actually discussed dealing with feelings and learning to feel our hunger and understood that this was about a life commitment not just until we got back into those sexy size 12s. So that's my plan and I am sure there are the purist out there that will rant that I am supporting dieting culture by paying to go to the meetings and in no time at all I will be sucked back into following a set of outside rules but I am stronger than that and I figure that knowing that I need group support which WW meetings give me is a plus on my side - sure I might adopt one or two of their tips but I know that even though I have gained weight since I gave dieting away I also know that I am happier and feel more free than I have in a long time and I am not going to give up that feeling anytime soon.

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Living in the binge

Today I binged - now usually this would involve feelings of numbness and or guilt but today I took the advice of Geneen Roth and 'lived in my binge'. I could feel it coming my heart starting racing and I get restless, almost panicky - so I took a deep breath and had a chat with myself
'okay Bex, a binge is coming on do you want to go with it''
'Yes!'
'okay lets go with it but maybe this time lets try to be more concious of what we are feeling?'
So I brought my chips, donuts and chocolate - all the time being aware of what I was feeling and what my thoughts were. Then I got home laid out the food and began to eat. I knew I was eating in response to something emotional so why was I eating?
So now I had to go back in time to figure out why I was feeling the way I was and what I was turning to food for. In Geneen Roth's book she talks about there always being a trigger for a binging session and to find it we have to sort through what has happened and find the trigger.
Something that I thought was just triggered today because I felt like the big whale at the pilates class I went to this morning actually went back to yesterday morning and a project I am involved in setting up a Montessori school - with the project I feel like I am not being listened to yet I am also expected to do more than my share even though I am the only one with children including a young baby at home. So my binge today was caused by my feelings yesterday of being stretched too far and for me food is the only thing that doesn't want something from me and allows me to switch off.
So today yes I binged but today I was awake during the binge and discovered a feeling that I think has been buried for awhile so now what to do about it and you know what it starts with asking my husband to look after the kids while I have a long needed nap and time out.