Been awile

Yay!!! Assignments over!! Three years of Uni finished!! and..... I have gained 2.1! At this stage I am so over this weight loss thing. I am not sure why I am doing it because I am heavier now then when I gave birth to my little dude. So going throgh the crisis (again!!) ofwhat is stopping me from doing this. Especially right now because my little girl (who will be 4 in a couple of weeks!!) has started getting funny about food and being fat. And even knows some points values of foods - what message am I sending her? Also I have noticed I have started doing the 'god, I'm fat,no clothes fit anymore? What must I be doing to her?

I feel like I need a little step to start with but for some reason I think I have burnt out my brain cells on two weeks of 3am mornings and chocolate because even that little task seems to be beyond me.

Ha!! First time back here in a while and what do I do? Bitch and whinge - I hate women like me!!

I need a holiday!!!

Finally

Yay! I am finally back in the land of the living. I hate being sick - I don't get sick much so when I do I just want to curl up and become a cat...wouldn't it be nice to be a cat ..warm laps, sleeping all day, fur to cover up any roundness....hmmmmmm. Anyway lost 300grams okay I guess thought it would be more but a loss is a loss and over a year 300 grams a week is over 10 kilos so I am cool. Also on No Count I no longer feel deprived or hungry or obsessed so starting to feel more in control - well as in control and this chick could possibly be. Joined a gym he he he - still makes me laugh - Fitness NZ has this new thing where they are trying to get kiwis moving (well make it bloody warmer I say!) and they have gym memeberships for half price so got one for the local YMCA (nice one gym, pool and spa - not to mention yummy gym trainers!). I only brought a three month one rather than one year as I figured well lets just see how much I use it, cause the last couple of times I have joined the gym I have paid for 12 months but gone about three times (think they see me coming). Off to attempt to finish more assignments (or bed) - I graduate in three weeks!!!