Mini meltdown

Today I have had a bit of a mini meltdown with food due to a couple of things. One, left over birthday cake from little girl's birthday party - over the pink already!! Two, I am fighting off being sick - have been taking my echinacea so I am sure I am feeling better than I might have otherwise and three, starting to face the icky emotional stuff. Today I was going to start going through the exercises in Geneen Roth's book but because I have been feeling yuck I haven't quite got there and I guess I also think I am a little scared. So of course I am having a little freak out and eating to I guess numb the freak out voices and feelings. Right now I truly feel like I am about to step off the edge of the cliff and I am not sure if the parachute is going to open or not - I trust that it will but there is still the uncertainity until I actually do it!! Hey, I've come a little way already - admitting that it is feelings that I am eating for not hunger. So tonight going to just take a breath and step out into the unknown, wish me luck!