Balance

Last little while has been spent trying to get out of the dieting frame of mind so I have felt a little off balance. I guess it must be what riding a bike is like after you take off the trainer wheels - it has been bumpy and I still feel a little anxious when I eat something that on a diet would be considered 'bad' but I am starting to see foods as all equal a little more (just). The books from Geneen Roth and www.everywomanhasaneatingdisorder.blogspot.com has really given me a lot to think about and advice. The place that I am at now though is the place where I know that I can eat what I want but I also know that there needs to be a healthy balance of food in my life, not just for me but for my children. I want them to grow up with wanting and having a wide range of foods and on a daily basis having a healthy balance diet which also includes eating what they want when they are hungry. My question is though after years of dieting what is a healthy balanced diet - no carbs, no fat, high carbs, high protein, calories, points, three meals only????? I don't know what it means to just eat a balanced diet!!!

While I have been experimenting with honouring what my body wants I seem to push my body into having something I know it doesn't. Like for lunch I really wanted I ham sandwich but the f'ed up voice in my head said 'hey chick you are not on a diet have something naughty something with lots of calories- you are allowed so go for it.' So in my rebellious state I do what it says even though all I really wanted was a ham sandwich. So I know that this is going to take practise and the balance found.

I can definately say though that I am starting to feel so much better about myself, my relationship with food and sure that I can finally conqueror this thing.