Queen

Of Binge Eating that is. I just don't know what is wrong - what I need - what I am missing. Reading other peoples blogs I am inspired by their results and how they manage to get through and the successes that they have and I think I can do it! But you know what I don't think I can. For as long as I can remember I have been trying to loose weight and have tried everything even the crazy chew-your-food-but-don't swallow (yes - what crazy things we do at school). I must have shares in Weight Watchers and probably have paid a fair chunk of my total adult income to Jenny Craig, gyms and lets not forget the library of books that I have on every theory on how to loose weight but yet I am still here, still miserable and still overweight. I have had days that I have so thought that I have got it - this time I will so do this everything seems to be in place but I must be missing something because all to easily that falls away and I am left feeling like a failure and really worse off than before (if that is possible). I know this all sounds like a pity party but thats not what I want it to be - I am just confused and a little lost about how to get through this thing. I want my daughter to grow up without food issues. The other day I caught her sneaking food and when she is upset or tired or bored she looks for food and she is only 3 1/2 - what am I doing to her?

Where do I go from here?