Bum! Bum! Bugger!

Think my scales have it in for me - I have put on 800grams!!! I am now more than I was just after I had given birth and was still carrying fluid - back in bloody December! No count is great - in theory anyway - I can do breakfast, lunch but then come home from school and right now my frankenstein is bread and Jam (how old am I five!) and from the time I get home through till about 7.30 (the time that I start beating myself up for being such a fat pig!) I eat and eat. Today I even managed to pop off a button on my jeans whereas a few weeks agoI could go to the toliet and not have to undo them to pull them down (what an achievement!) so what's up with that. I am willing and able I just don't think my body and brain have caught up.