Monday, February 27, 2006

Warning Meltdown in Progress!!


The weekend is over and I have sunk into a weight loss nightmare. You know how once you have let yourself have that one bite, that one lick and before you know it you are lying under a blanket of chocolate wrappers and empty donut containers - well that's where I am now. I thought that I was leaving this land behind but unfortunately it followed me and appears to have attached itself to any part of my body it could get a hold of. I am not quite sure how to get out of it, I keep thinking that at the bottom of the cake box there may be some infinite wisdom but no matter how many cakes I go through I still haven't found it. Exercise has also become a distant memory and my treadmill is starting to look like a great clothes line. So all in all I feel fat, overwhlemed and darn well over the whole thing.

1 comment:

philippa_moore said...

Hi Bex!

Thank you for dropping by my blog! It's always great to hear from someone new. I'm glad you've started a blog of your own, and hope you'll get as much support from it as I do mine.

I can relate to what you wrote here. It just starts with one lick, one bite, and before you know it, you've eaten 5 Kit Kat Chunkys. Before I started losing weight, food was my hobby. I baked cakes and slices and biscuits all the time, when I was bored, when I was hungry (or thought I was!), etc. And often ended up eating the whole lot myself. We had a ritual of giant homemade pizzas and a whole garlic bread each on Friday nights, and packets of chips while we were watching the football. To comfort myself after a stressful day at work, I'd have a tub of icecream or a family block of chocolate. David and I would think nothing of ordering a whole KFC Family Feast or Variety Bucket, and eating the whole lot ourselves!!

Believe me, you can only keep up this way of eating for so long before you realise that the food isn't making you happy. It's just a distraction.

When I started losing weight, I had to completely revamp my attitude to myself and towards food. I had to learn to be my own best friend and stop using food as a distraction, an antidote for boredom or as a comfort. I had to learn why I turned to food if I was unhappy. I had to learn to recognise the triggers. Every time I feel myself reaching for food when I'm not that hungry, I consciously hear a voice in my brain saying "you don't really need that. You just want to eat it because you're upset/bored/frustrated." That never used to happen before. The old me wouldn't think twice about it.

You've made some very positive changes in your life lately, and you should be very proud. And if you're parting with $15.90 a week for WW, give it your all girl!!! I know you can do it!

I'll be back again soon to see how you go

xx