Right now I am struggling to keep afloat.
My life swings between - not eating, obsessing about eating, and binging - the middle ground appears to have gone. If I am not binging I am so anxious that I chew on my nails and almost feel like I am having a panic attack. Maybe its all of the dieting talk that has been going on around me with Sis wedding coming up, maybe its me graduating and now having to find a job. I don't know what it is but I need to stop it. Today it is a beautiful day and all I can think about is food - not taking my daughter to the beach, or playing outside or going to visit my sick grandmother - no, all I am thinking about is the next thing I will be stuffing in my mouth or how I can avoid eating tonight so I can get away with the binge I have had this afternoon.
About Me
- Bex
- I am 29 years old and this journey is actually all about me and actually losing the weight that appears to have taken up semi permanent residence on various parts of my body!
2 comments:
oooooooooooo i know all those feelings....find something completely random and off everything you've just listed thats going on...join a club..start a hobbie...it will get your mind off it...but then in a around about way help you to refocus as well!!!
meal by meal..day by day...
have you heard of Radiant Recovery? I tried non-dieting, dieting, everything... and this is the only program that is helping me face my sugar sensitiveity. I, too, am 29 and this month looks so hopeful compared to the last...
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